Though we have only recently (in the past month and a half) started this journey, it has been so encouraging to know that we are not alone! Even in the past few weeks, I have been blessed with God bringing individuals across my path (those I had lost touch with as well as “friends of friends”) that have went through the process of infertility, those that have adopted children due to infertility, and those that have chosen to adopt first. I feel like (if it is possible) Warren and I fit into all three of the above categories. At the beginning of our battle with “unexplained infertility” …which, by the way, I think God has a perfect explanation for…we saw adoption as a means to an end—a way to enlarge our family if nothing else was successful. But, God changed our hearts and we began to view adoption as our first priority…as the way God meant for our family to begin.
But, you know what? In reference to my first post…we all have trials…Mine may be different from yours, but I believe often we are all learning similar lessons of faith, trust, letting go of control over “our lives,” and realizing that God works EVERYTHING out for His good!
…Currently, as we fill out several other applications, Warren and I are in the middle of making decisions that feel slightly awkward. Do we choose to have a boy or a girl, or leave it open to whatever God provides? What about a child with special needs…Can we really say that we will absolutely NOT accept a child with a physical or mental handicap? …and the list goes on! How in the world do we make these decisions, most of which we would have no control over if the child was ours biologically?! We need prayer that we will listen, have peace, and be open to whatever God has for us! All the while, we are thankful that we are not alone on this journey…we have our heavenly Father who has provided us with a peace that words do not adequately described, we have a wonderful family, amazing friends, and have received wisdom from individuals that have been where we want to be…with a child to love in their arms!