With an extreme amount of craziness going on since...ummmm...late March...blogging has kind of taken a back seat. Not that I was an "on top of it" blogger before, but things have gotten really bad lately (sigh)...But, I guess that's life. Sometimes I think you have to do what you can do in order to make it through and hold on tightly to the rope you feel is unraveling. :)
Nothing terrible has been happening in our lives. In fact, just the opposite. Warren and I are doing amazing...God has healed our hearts, He has blessed us with so much, we are so thankful for so many things that are happening in our lives right now.--But, I think that "so many things" is probably the reason I am up at 12:45AM typing this...unable to sleep. I *hope* (fingers crossed) to learn one of these days to really let go ...let go of control, let go of trying to have back up plan A, B, and C, let go of trying to have everything in order before big events take place, let go of certain fears and worries (based on past experiences) that creep in and attempt to steal my joy, and let go of thinking I have to have everything figured out...
...I want to replace my fears, worries, and stresses with trust, peace, hope, and reliance on the One of whom this life is really about. I think everyone struggles with this battle at some point...but, I think some of us learn more quickly than others (I would be an "other") :) that worrying does not get us anywhere...that stressing out will not solve all of our problems...that it is ok to make mistakes (it's how you handle the mistake afterward that counts)...and that there are some things in life you just have to learn as you go--trusting that God will equip you with exactly what you need for every situation.
I love and am clinging to this prayer by Priscilla Shirer (in the study "One in a Million"):
According to Philippians 4:19 I believe that You will meet all of my needs according to Your glorious riches in Chris Jesus. Lord, thank You that You are a shield around me. You are my glory and the lifter of my head (Ps. 3:3). As I journey, Lord, please reveal Your love for me that, according to Ephesians 3:17-20, surpasses knowledge and fills life with Your fullness. Thank You for being able to do immeasurably more than I can ask. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.